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Worse Than Before

from Fallow Ground by Chad Steven

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I used to spend my nights getting tore up/ doing shot after shot and I couldn't seem to stop/ it was a weekend thing/ no biggy right/ but I fell into sin/ it took over my life/ I was stressed and afraid/ 'cause of the choices I made/ the liquor seemed to have laid all that to rest/ and in the best of my needs I forgot/ there's a God who sees all and knows if your soul's gonna rot/ I think not/ 'cause I can put this liquor down/ but it cost so much/ don't want to see it go to waste now/ without a trace I lost my soul for a quick buzz/ feeling like I was even worse than before/ I closed the door to my heart and kept it shut/ all the darkness inside/ thought I could kick it aside but/ I was wrong/ alone and afraid/ the stupid choices I made/ I pushed my Jesus away

Chorus: I can't take it no more/ I'm just/ living in sin and in time I know I must/ realize there's something better for me now/ I believe and trust in God that he'll show me how

So much time was a waste/ and I'd chase the things that made me feel good at the time/ never holding back/ I lacked the patience inside and I'd hide all the emptiness inside of my heart/ Lord where do I start/ but I'm not ready to change/ and I'd hang on to the pain/ 'cause it's inside of my brain/ I feel so stupid now/ and I'd take another shot til I'm numb/ and how dumb it was for me to think it'd help me in the long run/ feeling left all alone like nobody cared/ that was the hardest way for me to get by/ and I try to find comfort in the simpliest ways/ drunk on Saturdays/ living life in a craze/ always/ having questions/ feeling shallow within/ do I make the right choices/ then my heart sinks in/ the ground is fallow and I need to sow a spiritual seed/ I reap the tree that gave us life that held a Savior to bleed

Chorus: I can't take it no more/ I'm just/ living in sin and in time I know I must/ realize there's something better for me now/ I believe and trust in God that he'll show me how

Feeling weak but renewed/ 'cause I choose to live my life in a minorities shoes/ to spread the good news/ I chose to wake up and follow God's path/ yeah they might laugh when I gave up the booze and got back/ all my faith was restored/ and I'm sure that when I try I ain't got nothing to hide/ and why lie to that/ the Lord he knows all that I've done/ the bad/ the fun/ when I've helped/ and when I've disappointed someone/ now I live for his grace/ and I face the empty space that seems to cover this race/ at a crazy pace/ and it's the deepest I've been/ and back then I wouldn't even think of a chance to live this again/ the Lord has said it's time for me to wake up/ and so I try and I learn/ I might fail/ but oh well/ it's hell in hard times/ just trying to make it sometimes/ you've gotta reach out your hand/ live in the promise land/ it's time we understand that

Chorus: I can't take it no more/ I'm just/ living in sin and in time I know I must/ realize there's something better for me now/ I believe and trust in God that he'll show me how

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from Fallow Ground, released September 9, 2009

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Chad Steven Staunton, Virginia

Chad Steven is a Holy Hip-Hop artist from Waynesboro, VA. He has had quite a repertoire of performances. He's performed at many different venues including opening for Lecrae, James Madison University, WHSV TV3 News, Nashville, TN, and the 2005 Holy Hip Hop Awards show in Atlanta, GA to name a few. He won an award in 2003 from the Entertainer's Indie-Association and Record Row Review. ... more

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